I feel like I am playing a game of Where in the World is Carmen Santiago, because I have lost something I usually have tied around my neck this time of year.
Where is the dread, the guilt, the playing hooky from reality that I usually experience this time of year? I know I should not look a gift horse in the mouth, as the saying goes but...well I guess my give a *^%$ button is broken.
This is all that will be done. This is all I have the energy for. The rest is up to others of the frantic and organized squad. I have baked my last pastillito, iced my last cupcake, batched my last cookie. Wrapped all that will get wrapped. And that's the way it is.
In my heart of hearts, and mind, I have moved on to hearts and bunnies and skelley's and pumpkins.
The gnomes in the kitchen keep insisting that I give them a little more attention since we got some new additions to the collection from another talented artist in Sweden Marie Louise Fritzen www.coelins.etsy.com/ and our Photog extraordinaire Rebecka Ryborg Skott http://www.http//beckybus.se/wordpress/ has sent us another of her masterpieces to be added to our collection of Beckybusness. I will give you wisdom from Becky across the ocean...."polka dots have power and polka dots give power". Now you have been blessed with all that matters.
I love, love, love red with white polka dot anything. And I have been keeping that longing down in the "some day, I'll get around to that" part of my being......but that is precisely what is calling me now, instead of the holidays. So instead of being a responsible adult and focusing on what is at hand and what I should be doing.....I am obeying my "need to do" and that's the name of that tune.
Who knows what tomorrow will or will not bring and I'm feeling like I should do what I can, while I can. Maudlin? Well maybe, I prefer to think of it as practical but I don't pretend to have all the answers, hell, most of the time I don't even know the questions so.......off to play with polka dots.