Blogging is a little like playing the lottery or Texas holdum. You play and then you see sometimes that your efforts have brought reward, and then again sometimes you lose your shirt, shorts or dignity.
I have been guilty of saying too much on my blog at times. Things that if I had "do overs", I would. But I can honestly say that even though I may have doubted myself every once in awhile that I have never truly regretted any post that I have done. Now, don't get me wrong, I have gotten righteously pi**ed off and ripped on someone big time and then deleted the post. But that was because I didn't want to cause someone else (not the target of the rant) embarrassment or harrassement. I have learned in my 6 decades here in this reality that what goes around, comes around. I do believe that ugly is best left unsaid in most cases. And besides, I would hate to distrupt my Mom's rest in her crypt and have her come here to whup my butt cheeks for not being the daughter she thought she raised. I wouldn't want to totally disappoint her. Best to leave that particular unpleasantness alone.
I have been very fortunate in my blogging, in that I have found and kept friends that are all across the board in beliefs, areas of the world, economic situations, but the one thing that is completely true across the board is that each of you has some bit in common with me. Whether that is Autism, grandparenting, art, good heartedness or a sense of humor, we were brought together for some unknown reason. So that when one of my "friends" on the blogsophere just is gone, I am always a little sad.
Sometimes it is an understandable explanation, sometimes they just quit blogging only to return another day and in some cases they just vanish. I know she can't see my blog but I would like to say goodbye to DarkMotherGoddess. I do know why she is gone, but I will miss her and her smarmy mouth and funny outlook on life.
The loss of her interaction and also the finding of a bloggy friend on facebook who told me I never answered her comments on my blog made me do some soul searching. I enjoy you....but am I being good to you? I'll have to contemplate, as I did a few months back how I will let you know I appreciate your comments. I have tried to email folks but some of you have no reply on your comments and some just don't have an email address listed....sooooooooo.....I have to contemplate this. But be assured, I do appreciate you being out there keeping me honest, motivated and energized, it makes me be a better me and contemplate for goodness sake.....who would have thunked that anyone or anything could get me to contemplate?
My made up vert word for this post is: gotaluvet. This is what is feel for my bloggy life, you just gotaluvet.
See you on Weds. with the next to last chapter in "When Oz was Young".