Ever since Ry was born...I mean the instant he looked at Joe and I for the first time, he was ever so different than any baby I had ever known. He looked like he was somewhere else all together. He returns to that place and finds comfort and is just able now to differenciate between here and there. In our own Casa de Cuckoo way, we refer to this as him being called back to the Mother ship. He is here in body but he is taking a little vacation sometimes.
When he was 5 weeks old, Shelley let me keep him for a few hours while she had some alone time with GK. Poor baby would not stop crying. I'm not talking about wah, wah, I want a bottle, or diapers changed, or comfort. I mean screaming. I don't know you, I don't know you. HELP. Don't touch me. Of course not having an experience with any body who doesn't like to be touched, I didn't know what to do. It was like holding a baby for the very first time. Scary, ackward and wasn't a good thing for either of us.
Ry just could'nt take the stimulation of an outside source.
Being a touchy feely person, I was naturally put off. I thought it was a matter of like and dislike. I was hurt. What an uninformed child I was.
Almost 7 years later (his birthday is in 8 days), I am smarter, he is older, we trust each other more. Life with a child on the autism spectrum is not easy, but I am being absolutely honest with you when I say the journey that this little sweet soul has brought me on is one I would not have missed for anything in this universe.
Here is a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWesQK0rtc8&feature=player_embedded to a short from a movie that might help you understand more about autism and the myths and misunderstandings that exist about the wide variety of symptoms and ticks of those on the spectrum. The one truth of autism is...."everyone wants to communicate". The title of the film which will be in limited release starting April 23. The title is "Wretches and Jabberers".
Many of you who do not have any relationship with autism would truly be blessed by learning more about it. Had I only had a bit of info, I may not have wasted time wondering and not knowing. Please know that because autism occurs in 1 out of every 110 persons that you will encounter autism in one section of the spectrum sometime in your life and knowledge is power and peace.