You all are so much of the reason I keep on keeping on....yep, you and the grands. I know from my rants and haranges in the past you can tell I'm a bit manic. No, really Linda? We really hadn't noticed, as you duck and run.
I do so attempt to control my ups and downs publicallly as best as humanly or in my case croneally possible. I don't like to disappoint anyone. I don't like to take advantage of anyone and I really (I know it seems like I do, but I don't) enjoy laundering in public.
Most of my life I have felt outsane....not insane. I am outside the scope of sanity. Fun but a bit tiring as I ride my own rollercoaster. Maybe that's why I enjoy outsider art, because it is what I have been doing for such a long time....outside of what others do. Anyway to the point at hand.
I have added the gosh I love you but I can't play button on the sidebar because there are those of you out there who love me enough to honor me with awards and I can't face them. I put them off thinking that tomorrow will be a better day....and that Scarlett and I can reach down deep inside and say something witty and charming and pleasing.....well kids......the rope is raveling at the ends and I must say, I can't put pressure on myself.
For those of you who are wonderfully normal and have all your eggs tucked happily in your flower covered baskets, I am sorry to disappoint you. I still love you, I still need your approval of me but I can't even remember real things right here in this plane of existence and I hope you will accept my humble apology for being a rotten game player now a days. I'm hoping it will work it's way out of my system but............who knows. I don't plan on going away, I just want to be honest with you and let you know that I will no longer accept the honor of awards.
As you can tell by the tone of this post that things here in Casa de Cuckoo are "on the edge". I'd tell ya but then I'd have to kill someone so we'll skip the bloody parts. Just know I think about all of you my lovelies and will be here (with my imaginary friends as Dr. Fuzzyface calls you all) when I can. Send spells of healing, light candles of hope and for goodness sake.....pray for us.