I, still have results of some tests and an EKG and a biopsy to go before the middle of October. But I'm beginning to feel so rushed and pushed. Non of my results have come back as life threatening, yay, but my physicality is a real issue for my success coming out of the surgery that is planned.
I am a "large gal" according to the surgeon. Of course he is correct. I have what is commonly called, an emotional insulation package. I have for all of my life eaten my fears, problems, hurts. Thus I am way overweight. I had a therapist tell me that many people insulate themselves by overeating. I have dieted and lost a great deal of weight in the past and then found that weight back again. But this time it is a matter of survival.
I looked up my statistical chances at my current weight and age for survival of any surgery. 50/50. And since my tests results have been non cancerous but still noteworthy, I have decided to be a rebel and take the next 6 months to improve my odds. If I loose 40 lbs, the odds go up to 70/30. If I loose 70 lbs my odds go up to 90/10.
Fat and sassy had it's place but now I choose to just be alive and sassy.
Just thought I'd share my choice.
Thanks for reading.